旅行

嘿！ 你有空吗？
有没有兴趣一起旅行？
好想和你一起去见视这美丽的地方。
这次的出发将会是一向探险。。。
mmm... 旅程遥远，诱惑也不少。

你要小心不要在旅途的过程中迷失。。。
不要因为路途的精彩而遗忘了我。
我也会在这探险的过程中尽量配合你的脚步！

唯！说真的，你会有兴趣吗？
你。。。 愿意吗？


行程资料
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起点： 我的心
终点： 你的心
行程时间： 一辈子

So much about ethics nowadays

I is slow... cos only now then the "poly" issue came to my attention. I have not seen the clip yet and is not interested in seeing it! I really don't know what I should say~

HAIZ... So much of our ethics has been revealed online...

Our younger generation (haha~ I no longer in poly... I is old liao) is so overwhelmely hungry in seeking attention that they have lost their ethics, moral and virtues... This is not a good sign man~! It'll grow into a social problem if we are not doing anything about it! And please... this cannot be solved by just having someone looking into the issue... All have to play a part leh~!...

I is responsible... at least in apologising for "flaming" (~more of scolding I think...) on my blog...

So much of ethics, morals and virtues has been revealed... So hungry to be seeking fame and attention, pay for it using privacy~! The price is so bloody, non-monetary payably, expensive~!

DO YOU HAVE TO WAIT TILL LIVES BEING TAKEN TO REALISE YOUR MISDEEDS??

THINK WELL, REFLECT AND REPENT YOUR DEEDS!

KTV

This is my first time jio-ing people to KTV after work. My 人气 should be not bad. Got good responses... Actually I intended to make the group small so that we have enough to sing for the high cost we are paying. I jio-ed only 4 others but there are 9 of us today.

Those of the 1st round invitees are...
Yvonne
kelly
Andy
MinMin
(and of course me 啦~)

2nd round invitees are
Swee Hin,
Tenny,
Vincent
Wee Kiat <-- I think, if I never remember his name wrongly :P

Anyway... the energy level was high tonight. It seems like everyone have been wanting to go KTV for quite some time... so much so that I can sense their craving, their excitement.
\(^__________________________^)/

Kelly was the most "affected" by this KTV session. She even compiled a list of song that she wanted to learn to sing... 哈哈~ I got a picture of the list here... XD

Tonight was literally a mic snatching session... cos too many people and too little time to sing our many many songs... I didn't take any pictures then cos they don't want to be posted online... I at the same time also didn't want to pursuade them off their rights. I mean it's a kinda respect~

Andy and Tenny was 搞笑-ing entertaining us in our waits... this also affected kelly in her singing... she can't help laughing~ soon she started giving up her next few songs. XD
Cheap trick of Andy & Tenny... they just hasten the queue!

This time die liao

I this time sure die liao...

Assignment also no know how to do...
Lessons also no know what's happening...

I this time sure die liao...

Should I

Should I 寄送 some of my entries here to let 小寒 critic?
Should I just let loose some face and pride for my manic?
Should I just 霍出去?
I may just meet up face to face with him just this once...

Need some strength for changes... HELP~!

enlightenment

Jean-Dominique Bauby 的 《潛水鐘與蝴蝶》 是不是也让你想多了?

《潛水鐘與蝴蝶》為書名，「潛水鐘」是指生命被形體所困禁的困頓，而「蝴蝶」則隱喻生命在想像中具有的本質自由。

「潛水鐘」加上「蝴蝶」，那蝴蝶再怎樣舞踊，也呈現不出曼妙的輕鬆，而同時候掩飾不住它的悲痛。


我要珍惜。。。 不管是好的、坏的、开心的、悲伤的，都是幸運，幸福的。。。
突然好象了解了许多。。。 似乎得到了enlightenment。

死 les, 小心我扁你!!!

你歪斜的眼神正在偷偷摸摸什么?
要看就光明正大一点~! 偷什么瞄?

瞄规瞄唷~! 瞄的时候嘴角为什么要上殃?

话, 我可是先说在前... 我是正的不搞虚(In short... I not lesbian)
在这样子奇怪表情的偷瞄我, 小心我扁你!!!


(~*在问候你奶奶, 你妈妈当中*~)
Q%#@F">Q%#@FQW%&^*@#%'>Q%#@F">Q%#@FQW%&^*@#%^#@~

我未来老公也照扁你~! 死 les !

对不起, 我错了

我疯了...
我豬頭...
我有病...
我变态...
我有罪...
我該死...
我耀豪...

居然这么怀疑你... 对不起, 我错了...

放焰火

夜晚深了更漆黑
星火延伸又一枚
火灼之后点缀夜
片刻灿烂唤喜悦

人生嘛~ 人生呀~ 有时派对般狂欢 时有落榜试沮丧...

P/S : 文笔有点庸俗 这点我也承认
可是 火灼后的喜悦 也不过那么土.

Had lunch today with these 2 collegues... Don't ask me why suddenly join them, I feel like going out far far away from work, plus they drive... HAHA~

Don't call me a flirt... I'm not... Just very tomboyish <-- this, I myself admit

The 2 of them are guys, <-- I think nowadays, guys easier to mix around... or maybe they see me 1 gal, nobody to lunch with so 可怜 me... and me... being the only gal of the 3 of us out there... they start to bombard me with funny questions...

KH: Actually for valentine's, issit a must to give flowers for gals?
CK: You mind if your boyfriend don't give you flowers for valentine's?
(thinking to myself) Wah~! Ask me ah... Cannot take my answer for it leh... I 怪脚 gal leh~
Me: I don't mind if don't have lah... Flowers ex on V-Dae leh...
KH: blah blah blah... blah blah blah blah.. blah blah...
CK: blah blah blah blah.... blah blah blah blah... blah blah blah blah
KH: blah blah blah... blah blah blah blah.. blah blah...
CK: blah blah blah blah.... blah blah blah blah... blah blah blah blah
(Meanwhile I was pretending to listen but in actual fact I was totally immersed in my own world)
KH: I give flowers and teddy bear... Actually this is my 2nd time giving her teddy bear I think...
CK: Don't give bear lah~ give other stuff toys lor...
Me: (begining to confess) I also receive bear bear... already have many of them liao... (I also intending to hint that giving stuff toys to grown up gals a bit wrong move... don't know if they get my hint... I'm keeping their pride lor... GUYS & THEIR EGO ISSUE <--我特质的温柔)
CK: What you give him huh?
Me: Towel. (Please read the previous entry for details...)
CK: Why towel??? towel cannot give as present lah...
(thinking to myself) Why cannot? Do you know what I trying to convey or issit that you think it's too cheapo?
Me: ~smiles~
CK: Get him to buy you jewellery lor... I buy every year for my wife...
(thinking to myself) I don't usually wear them & I not so materalistic... I'll be happy enough if he gets me a gift that I need or want, even though it's very cheap... I mean... This is not difficult lor... at least it's a known fact that I like mayday and just by getting me a mayday album or concert vcd will score him high... It's the heart that counts mah~
Me: ~smiles~

Now I know... If they are thinking this way... most prob my boyfriend also thinks this way... I purposely blog my valentine's day present to let him know... know the reason behind my gift... And true enough, he said this to me...

"Where got people write these on blogs de??? You like that, nobody can decode your meaning lor~!"

Well, I can only say this...
情人节的礼物, 老天爷赐给大家美好的好天气.
I, 怪脚 gal... 送给你, 我特质的温柔...

"我不会为了要脸上贴些金,
让你当大菜头或要你作一些你不愿意,
不舒服, 不自在的事.
这... 就是我特质的温柔..."

My Valentine's Gifts

This year is our fourth year together...
And so coincidently I get four presents from PH this valentines...

Hooo~ Hooo~!!
Not a bad move by him, I must say... at least he got my hint... Either that or he is lucky enough to revert the situation for the better!

(let U see the bear close up~)

I gave him his valentine's present on Sun, 12th Feb 2006... (Yes, only 1 present) Gave him early present because I'm taking part-time MSc in NTU every tues and thurs... and some wed, may not beable to meet him for dinner and get through all the romantic present openings session... Maybe I was intending not to meet him on valentine's day sub-consciously... I don't know which of it is more though...

I gave him a "baby pooh hug baby tigger" bath towel. Choosing this present actually have some purpose...

One reason is that I realise that during last december's rainy season, he does not have enough towels to use and has been using wet towels... (THE~! towels are suppose to dry you not you drying your towels!!! Can someone enlighten me on the purpose of his actions of using WET towels??? Please..... that really totally makes no logic, no sense... Oopsss... and so sorry that the person happens to be him!) So he needs some back-up towels!

The second reason is that I have been very tired of the relationship... Not too sure issit due to the depression, but if you have been seeing my blog entries... some of them really gives you the signs on my thoughts of giving everything up...

Tuesday Feburary 14 2006, 11.20am
有你的将来?
离开你
Time to Move On
错爱

But I'm generous.. I'm giving him the benefit of doubt that he has not updated himself on my feels and thoughts... so the towel actually can express my meaning of something like "Throwing the towel - giving up everything" if he still does nothing about it.

If you were me... will you be giving a towel too??

My 浅湖蓝 umbrella has been found

Ha ha! Yeah~!

My 浅湖蓝 umbrella has been found... I'm so sorrie to have scolded your on my blog in return of your kindness...?!

~Please let me re-explain the whole incident again on this entry~
The misunderstanding happend like this...

Background
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Our department are undergoing relocation... not too sure of its reason, maybe a lost or gain of power by our highest software VP (not too sure of his designation... there are too many versions of it liao :P) Anyway, the actual relocation is taking place on the Sat, 11th Feb 2006, an we have to pack our stuffs and clear the place by Fri, 10th Feb 2006.

You know la~! Those movers usually no care much de... throw things here & there... Umbrellas so fragile... better to take home mah... The problem comes liao... I have 2 umbrellas at my desk (both mine la!) To bring home 2 umbrellas at the same time will make me look like idiot... so I decided for this stupid idea...

10th Feb 2006, about 10.00am
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Me : Buddy, 你是好人 hor?
Cube bubby (collegue) : Of course
Me : Can I ask a favour from U?
Cube bubby (collegue) : Wha~! U like that say I 好人 liao, how to reject?
Me : Can I keep one of my umbrellas in your car for the weekend?
Me : I'll look like idiot if I going to bring them both home today... THANKS
Cube bubby (collegue) : No prob on that... :P

Haha~! (^_^)V... I got my way through...

10th Feb 2006, about 14.35pm
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I came back from my project's appreciation lunch... Feeling very FULL & LAZY... So I decided to start a little of my last packing & find some stupid reason to siam... then I realised that My 浅湖蓝 umbrella is missing! Ok Ok~ no panic so much... maybe the person who took it just needed it (that afternoon was raining la... not considered pouring but was not drizzle either)... So I searched my quite clean & clear desk to find any note... No have... Nevermind, maybe the person not yet back from lunch... so haven't return... I wait... I wait...

10th Feb 2006, about 16.35pm
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Whao Lau~! finish packing liao... another half hour more go home liao... still no signs... I HOT liao... Office also got people so thieve one... Whao lau eh~! Only 1 umbrella also wanna 占为己有! So, I go blog down lor... Blog can "柑" that unethical person mah~! (At the same time I email my buddy say no keep his favour 了... 1 umbrella missing... )

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Yesterday... before I left work... I receive this....

Cube bubby (collegue) : I think your umbrella is on my car...
Me : U mean the light blue one?
Cube bubby (collegue) : I think so... I bring for U tomolo...
Me : No worries about that... I'm still at my temp location...
Cube bubby (collegue) : Ok... Just don't make me run in the rain to get it for U :P
Me : I not that mean la... <-- me just trying to be nice, real not like that de

SHIT~! Now I blame the wrong person liao... 做人 have to 一人做事一人当... So now I have to applogise on my blog...

SORRY FOR "柑-ing" U ON MY BLOG...

HELL BURNS ME, NOT YOU~

BUT U HAVE TO BE PAID DOUBLE FOR YOUR UNETHICAL, NOT INFORMING ME OF TAKING MY UMBRELLA, BEHAVIOUR!

对不起, 我错了

Like that fair judgement liao hor~!?

The rose we bought

The rose plant we bought home was just a piece of it's stem...

Now, after about 8 weeks... It has bloomed!

Happy Valentine's Day

This entry really brings back memories especially this self created sticker ( taken from BM's site... BM hope U don't mind, this is really so nice & memory recollecting that I wanted to keep a copy of it \(^_^) V )


This is also what I used to do when I was in secondary school... But instead of just stickers we also have many chocolates, candies, friendship letters, les-hugs and cards exchanges... Those were the days man~ where "depress" is no where to be found.

For BM

I must say this... I really must say this...

"BM your blog never fails to brighten up my life!!!"

2 thumbs up for you and your blog!

Now is Tuesday Feburary 14 2006, 11.20am...

I is depressed...
It's like a disaster hit...
I have no feel in doing anything...
Just wanna rest, sleep, die...

There is no reason I can find...
Absolutely no clue, no nothing...
No clue, no events to shoulder this blame...
Or fit any reason for this instant's game...

I can choose to follow the game...
I can choose to defy the rules...
I have not made any extreme pick...
Just blogged it down to leave some bit.

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I feel better now that I've blogged...
Maybe it's just something needing my attention...
Maybe it's just me having lost my identity...
Maybe it's just me "gheng-ing" too much...
Not too sure what's the course of it,
Maybe it's just the results of me & my dissonance.

Disclaimer: This is purely a personal perception of my own folly

This is really stupid... It happened last night, when I was about to turn in. I actually can accidentally swallowed a tiny little bit of my Listerine mouth gargle (orange flavour one) while trying to clean my mouth. Man~! The reaction was almost immediate... I can feel the rush up my stomach then, my esophagus... Before I can respond to anything, the last remains of my early dinner - already reduced t0 something brownish and sour gruel type of disgusting acid, was already foming at my mouth... Just then, I've became the merlion at home! (~though I'm cognitively fast enough to capture all these changes~) Nevertheless, I have something to conclude...

For those anorexic and bulimic beauties out there~! Here's a tip for you! Listerine Mouthwash is your helper~... If there is really a urge that you need a puke, you can try my folly and that'll definately aid your puke for the better... At least with this you don't have to leave any teeth-scratched marks on your hand~?!

P/S: I'm not sure what will become of you if you swallow too much of Listerine Mouthwash but I'm sure this will lead you to a death road... But who cares~?! You are already going towards death road by starving your body..., Listerine overdose is just a catalyst!

BTW, I'm still having some gastric discomfort now...

我的自我介绍

我是一个因矛盾而撞击出来的一个人。

我。。。

是一个拥有粗狂同时又细腻一面的人。

天赐的女儿身段之中隐藏着男儿气息。

可以同时间的憎恨与爱恋未知的改变。

喜欢文字的包围却又不善运用于表达。

超爱音乐反而对音乐的了解一无所知。

渴望被身边的人疼爱但一点也不讨喜。

经常在低调的时期不尽意的引人注目。

急将成为学历高，学识OK的笨蛋工程师。

原本。。。

应该是一起充满无限瑕疵的完美创作，

至今。。。

却简化成为一向持有完美瑕疵的实例。

所以。。。

我真的是一个因矛盾而撞击出来的一个人。

我和我之间的矛盾是永远不可能妥协瓦解。

彻底妥协或瓦解的瞬间就是失去自我之时。

而。。。

认识我的你，是不是正在感觉幸福？

同时间的触觉也附带着倒霉的预感？

那。。。

瞬间感觉又幸福又倒霉的你， 是否也被我天生具有的矛盾而困惑？

TOTO

今晚的 Toto，你买了没？
这次可是有 10 million 这么多哟~！

哈哈。。。 发财，发财~！

My 浅湖蓝 umbrella

Who the fuck took my 浅湖蓝 Giodano umbrella without asking??? You bastard/bitch!!! Haven't you got the slightest courtesy to ask or leave a note or something?? Even if you didn't want to take the effort to inform, can't you return it immdiately after use??? You fucker/fuckee idiot!!!

My 浅湖蓝 umbrella was bought on 16th october 2005... It was the day that my showcase ended and the sky was pouring like mad outside Orchard Cineplex. I called PH from West Mall to come save me after shopping in the complex for like an hour??? That is how my 浅湖蓝 came to me.

My 浅湖蓝 umbrella cannot be replaced by just buying a new one, K~! Even if you wanna buy me a new one I also 不屑！

You god damn mother fucking faggot/dyke, thieving, despicable, immoral lowly fellow, GOD DAMN YOU!!! May you be paid double for your unethical behaviour!!!

HELL BURNS YOU!!!!

Quit了啦! Quit了啦! 我也不干了

Perferring to Reene's http://laruku1006.blogspot.com/2006/01/i-quit.html I think I should just do the same... start a new blog to record new impulses of my life. I should leave...

Should long forget the stupid theory of 陈大诗人. What "害怕恐惧, 爱上恐惧... 那就在也没有恐惧!" What the fuck is that? Maybe I should have just cared less and follow my feels. And as for now, what the fuck am I doing here???

I hate myself for this...
I hate myself for not doing anything to rectify the situation...
I hate myself and my constant cognitive dissonance...

Don't see me gal den you can bully

Don't see me gal then you can bully!
Don't see me small small size easy to bluff!
Don't see me cute cute everytime smile smile then take advantage!
Push all the work to me hor~!!

MSc you also taking, project you also have to do mah... You think only you are busy then can just push the work around ah huh? Everybody also busy mah... You need help then ask for our help lah~! Why? So proud until asking for help also paiseh to do, resort to pushing responsibilies issit? %$@^! If you want eng eng cheng cheng get your qualifications then go overseas lor... go those never hear before universities like "Kawaii Yagineering" take your masters lah...

PUI~! I 鄙视 you as a leader... 下台吧~!!!

Today is Wednesday, 8.2.2006

Wah Liaoz... Blogspot gave me a heart attack this morning... Went into my blog to find missing entries!!! How can this happen?? All my entries are precious to me leh~! All of them marks a certain impulse of my life... cannot afford to lose them cos I know for sure I can never create another of the same entry again. So...

PLEASE BLOGSPOT, IF YOU ARE PLEDGED TO PROVIDE BLOGGING SPACES, SECURE THEM LAH~! NO MORE MISSING ENTRIES AFTER I LOADED THEM TOO THE SERVER CAN A NOT??

Hint: guess my occupation...

Hipos and Hipos... I see many Hipos on the ground.
My vision is so filled with hipos, fed till round.
This is my work, my career and my life...
Better for me to change a line before I hate myself till the core.